Wednesday, March 26, 2008
what do you think about when you run? is running a time for you to really "work things out"? or is it a time to just "let go" and run? i struggle with "working things out" when i run. i'd really like to be able to use the time i'm out to listen to my thoughts, work through them, and feel cleansed on some level after i'm done. my reality is that my thoughts come and go as fleeting ideas and then my mind is on to the next thing. i am distracted by many things when i run: i worry how fast i'm going, why that kid can't control his bike and is veering onto my side of the trail, did i remember to email that client, what lap am i on, my lungs burn, wrong music track, how is my nike+ doing today? is it off by much? i wish i were running with my girls. i wonder how salt lake is going to turn out? is maggie ok? you get the picture.
my goal is to eventually achieve some sort control ... think when i want to, and don't think when i don't want to. when i'm not thinking i just want to be able to breathe, feel the air, and just let go. maybe it's just not my personality. who knows?